Lately, I’ve felt that my blog has lost its initial purpose: talking about dramas, writing my annoyance with a character or my love for another however along the way I ended up wanting to write recaps. Kind of a joke to be honest since English isn’t my main language and as it can be seen I have lots of grammar mistakes. Although I’m trying to improve, I do know that my language skills aren’t at the level of writing recaps considering that even my vocabulary isn’t as rich as of a native speaker so I do tend to overuse some words.
More than that, when I made this blog I wanted to just simply make it something personal, a space where I just write my soul out regarding a drama, a character or even a scene. However, this autumn we got a new wave of Korean weekend family dramas, a genre which I like considering the length of such shows that give every character the opportunity to shine and even space to develop not only for the main characters.
‘My daughter, Geum Sa Wol’, ‘Mom’, ‘All about my mom’ and even ‘I have a lover’ were dramas that immediately made me think ‘I need to watch those dramas and recap each one of them’, shows that made me think that I have to cover them all. But really, for what purpose? Thoughts such as “I want to watch it, I like the plot or the actors” disappeared and were replaced by “I need to”. There’s no fun in ‘need’ especially when my hobby or rather the activity that I normally use to break away from my everyday annoyance (school work….and everything else required by society to be a ‘proper’ human) turned into a bother.
I used to like even writing recaps for the weekend dramas but frankly speaking, it is hard. Really hard! Following details and taking into consideration every scene that may have an impact later on isn’t easy especially for shows that are mostly 50 episodes and again, even harder for a non-native English speaker. Despise me liking writing recaps for dramas such as ‘I summon you gold’ or ‘Mama – nothing to fear’ lately the recent dramas made me re-think why I made my blog and clearly the main idea wasn’t for recaps. Thus I’m going back to just writing personal reviews of dramas I’m following because I want to go back to thinking that talking about dramas is fun.
All in all, I’m giving up on ‘I have a lover’ – it’s not a drama to keep me wanting for more and I just want to focus on dramas that I truly want to watch and follow.